It's a New Year

2006. Is it really? I can remember thinking that the nineties was so....final. As a high school student I could not imagine the year 2000 and yet here we are. Already six years into the new millenium. I am curious to know the term that refers to the sudden increase of time that most of us experience as we age. Time stood still when I was little and now I blink and I have aged a year. Every year I resolute to make it a better one. I have tried the "Lose 20 pounds, quit smoking, etc..." route and since it never works, my philosophy is to wake up every day with an attitude of improvement. So far it seems to be working just fine. I have been exercising steadily for over a year, I returned and am partly finished with college, I have painfully changed my bitchy attitude (ongoing), and tried to become a better mother. What I finally realized was that none of this is ever final. Life is everchanging and happiness can not be measured on attainment. I always thought that when I finally could afford such and such or when I was finally finished with school that then I would be happy. Bullshit! I am happy...NOW. It just took my stepping back and evaluating what I was missing as I strove for the ever better. I am content in school and while I am eager to attain my goal of a degree, I honestly know that I will never stop "learning", even if that means a major portion of my life is spent pursuing degrees. My attitude towards money (which I have never had a lot of) was more, more, more. I want a lucrative career but I find that money is just an energy burner. If you let it, it consumes your thoughts. I do not have a big screen or a Lexus but if I did I can imagine I would want something nicer or more expensive. Give me an inch and I want a mile. I own that, even if it does hurt. Well, to all of you out there....Happy 2006. I hope it proves to be everything you want.